A very sesat week ..

Hehe .. I got my very very belated bday gift .. and now my handphone has cloth =P .. Thanks alot to Amanda who gave me this lil pressie .. appreciate it alot !! =P I dint noe Amanda good in this kinda handicraft ..

K .. This is really really sesat week of mine, and today I really that close to get cekik from sifu .. I seriously got no idea what happen to me, depress for no reason .. or I just said .. I cant find out wats the main reason for me to get depress .. and every stuff I do this week is like tons of mistakes !! Lets say today, just by burning a lil thing that I make .. It actually took me 3 to 4 times to get it right .. and same to yesterday and so .. this is gonna make me more and more sad ..

"Ben !! Wat are u doin ?!? U in love ar ?? "
"BEn !!!!!! what happen to you !?"

This basically is wat I get for the past few days, for making mistakes over and over again .. and making ppl more and more feel like cekik me immediately .. Is either I forget to take this .. or take that .. or misplace this and so on .. Basically .. everything I do . .there is surely some mistakes in there .. even a lil thing and even something that I familiar wif ..

Looooooord God !! Help me !! What happen to me !! *sniff*

Lois Bday Party

Horrible traffic !!! Traffic jam all the way from BU to Sunway .. and is like everywhere is jam .. y ?? from wat ppl told me .. Puasa maaa ... Friday maa ... that make sense .. hmm.

Today .. is Lois 21st Bday ...went to her house for the bday party ... arrived kinda early than others .. and supprise at those stores .. haha yeah, I mean stores .. which is those in small lorry, there is lok lok and cendol, rojak stores .. kewl eh ?? is rather unique than those cathering food .. Got my 2nd time of Lok Lok .. after tried my 1st time back in Penang wif AFC. I still not used to the taste of the Lok Lok .. taste .. abit ..funny .. or .. tasteless. . bleeh .. confuse .. is taste funny to me .. thats all ! Never tried rojak .. is just simply I dun take spicy .. and the cendol was not baad .. and definitely not to forget uncle Andrew's roast pork !! Yummmy .....

Brought a camera .. but i dint snap much or ratherly say, dint snap anything at all ..lol . Got la .. only 2 ..so forget bout it. Most of the time there .. I actually spend sitting wif ppl .. chatting and larfing around wif those weird funny jokes .. Esp the part when Ry-ann try to speak in Cantonese .. that is hillarious, and not to forget some mandarin session .. and there is tons of larfter .. but dun think wanna put it here .. it will be lasted for 2 or 3 whole pages long then .. lol .. keep it .. and some dun think i dare to put up .. *cough cough* I still dun wanna get kill by someone yet .. *cough cough* and yeah . .I do mean the cendol or rojak stores that thingy .. if u get wat i mean .. *cough*

Is super dangerous when I realise my car wiper not functioning well .. the more it wipes.. the more my windshield got bluuur !! The rain start pouring down .. and I got no choice but to pull over to a side .. and lookin up and down for some thing to clean my wiper manually .. Thanks for MayEe who stopped by and called me to check out wat happen =) .. appreciate that alot !

*Yawns* is 1.33 am !! haha I better off to bed .. ciaoz ..

Another walk in 1u

Drive to 1u right after work .. and try to look for some stuff as a present .. and I actually no mood to walk that much, so I head straight to the place that I can think of .. and I spend more than half and hour just wondering around in the lil shop .. there is not much customers around .. and those sales gals dun even bother bout my existance ..

Lookin here and there .. pick this up and put it down again .. over and over I've been lookin for something .. but I guess my mind had just set to the some certain stuff ... so in the end .. I do get the stuff that I want .. get it wrap .. get it pay .. and get myself outta the shop.

While in the shop .. there is this parents try to get something for their lil daughter .. and this father .. basically grab some cute soft toy .. and start playing against the lil daughter. . and he smooch the soft toy .. and heck, cant he noe anything more hygiene that kissing some stuff toy that God noes how many ppl had grab it b4 ?? I mean .. eeeew .... So .. anyway .. they walked around as well .. and he actually came to this kinda big tiger soft toy .. which when it stands up .. is at least a person tall .. and guess wat .. he go ask the lil daughter ..

"eeee .. Tigeeer .. u like it .. ? "
*silent a moment .. *
"MOmmmmmmmmmy !!! ~~ "

*Speechless* that lil daughter of theirs is like . barely 5 or 6 years old .. or younger. . and the dad actually thought of that daughter would like something that is so huge and looks fierce ?? That is .. hmm .. nvm.

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:: Listening : t.A.T.u - Obezyanka Nol ::

Depression .. Part 2

I really goin thru some depression now .. and is like few days and bout a week, I still feeeeeel so depress .. and yet I still searching for some reason of it ..

Lookin for some ears .. any ears around ?? I feel like pour out everything in here .. but .. sigh, my head is cracking .. and Im so so so sleeeepy ...
I guess I leave it for next time ..then ..

Depression ..

I guess I really going thru some depression .. for no reason I actually feel .. erm .. sad ?? or moody ?? or no mood .. or .. wargh ! watever it is .. I hate it. WeiPyng and Meiyii already noticed that I being super quiet on the last CG ... If 2 person asked the same thing .. that means I was too quiet ..

I dint mention b4 that I actually tripped over the camera and fell hard on the ground on the recent Planetshakers concert I guess . . That nite .. I ran down to set some stuff for the Camera B .. and it was so dark .. I see nothing .. and I actually tripped over the cable and fell from the platform to ground .. my left knee landed 1st .. and till now I havent even recover from that pain .. urgh !!

Anyway .. forget wat I want to type .. so .. hahahaha next time 1st la ..

:: Listening - YouthAlive Queensland : Forever Yours ::

TT session

Went out for 2 TT session in 2 weeks time .. That incude one of them actually went out for late nite movie wif frens .. Just thinking of .. go out a lil often than usual b4 December is here .. at least can realx and enjoy while I able to =)

Well .. went out once for late nite movie wif Elena, AhBe, JY, Han and Mariam . That time is my 1st time met wif Mariam .. she looks like chinese .. haha but she is mixe, so Im kinda .. half correct and half wrong. I was kinda blur that day when Ahbe send me a msg asking me whether wanna join them for late nite movie, she told me all the infomation but I was bz that time . .and dint really pay attention to the msg ... and yeah .. so I asked tons of stupid question =P Which include "Outdoor or indoor ? "

Met up wif them at 10 something . .and the movie starts at 11.45 .. bleeh .. almos 2 hours spending there walk around .. and sit and yakking at the Starbucks .. and guess who I met ?? Is BenjaminChong !! If any of u all remembers him back to CF .. but lost contact wif him after that.

Watche S'kali .. a really really Malaysian movie .. I heard is a low budget movie .. but hey .. the story line is really not baaaaad .. but if u talk bout how bout those camera shots, audio wise .. I can tell u .. Dude !! Is a low budget stufff .. wat do u want ?? But really supprise that they using da Sony HDV camera and yet the movie is rather disorted .. I wonder is because of the Cinema screen or the movie quality really drop .. But I do enjoy the movie .. is is IS SO MALAYSIAN LAaaaaaaa !!! hahaha .. a number of scenes from the movie actually shot near my place ? hehe I dint realise . or maybe I did .. but cant remember. In the whole show . is definitely more like normally we hang out wif frens .. those stuff .. We can like go "eh Brader .. " or .. "Machaaa !! " definitely .. some "daily words" .. "Hungrrrrry laaaaaa !!!! " reminds me that Ps Ben Woods and Ps Paul do agrees that Malaysian loveeee to eat !! =P

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On Friday .. after the CG I went to SS14 met up wif AhBe and Elena .. Just really plain TT session wif them .. a lil catch up .. a lil chatting .. and drove back and sleeeeep .. haha ..

On the CG .. I really so not myself .. even tho the CG was really really awesome .. but there is something bothers me .. and I really duno wats that .. or .. I skip CG once or twice ? hmm .. dun think that will help rite .. But .. nowadays CG I really really quiet down adi .. so not me .. WHY ?!

Thoguhts 01

"Bzzzzzzzzz"
*Weird smells*

Argh !! Time to change/repair my monitor soon .. my monitor start going really crazy .. makes some noise, and the weird smell will just appear .. smells like burning tho .. I guess I better get 1 if possible by Monday itself .. hopefully dun really cost that much .. sniff ..

Yesterday CG was awesome .. we got 12 ppl in the CG .. and yeah, arrived late, while they playing some bigaa boo game =P I dunno wat u call that, but that is 2 person holding piece of cloth .. and 2 team sit on each side, when the cloth is down, they haf to call each other's name ... whoever it is, whoever call it fast, whoever wins the game. The team who left the most lil ppl lost (Duh .. ) Kinda kewl eh .. is like ages ago the C G actually having some sort of the ice breaker thingy. Praise and Worship is awesome as well .. same to the discussion and sharing part .. mm .. Thinking back, early this year, the CG is kinda haf very lil ppl .. and then we start growing .. Oooooooh yeah !!

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Went to 1u .. and start walkin around while I try to get a shop that could kindly replace my watch batt for me .. Saw some kinda interesting thing. I guess everyone do noes that Acer has the special edition lappie of the Ferrari theme .. the bright Ferrari red lappie .. then yesterday .. I saw this brihgt yellow lappie .. guess what .. is from Apacer .. and is the Lambo lappie .. hehehhee cute, so whats next ? the Porche lappie from Toshiba ? =P

Went to the watch shop or watever u call it .. while waiting my batt get change, I start lookin for some new watches, not planning to get any, just wanna see whats the current trend, and finally the Swatch has something I kinda like .. then I saw this watch from Casio the G-Shock series, guess what .. is the wrist camera watch .. heck .. and it cost RM 769, and I really wonder what kind of the quality that the wrist watch can come out .. 1 MP? or perhaps .. might lower than 1MP. Who noes ? haha unless u ask the person, but I dint .. dun think i will be fancy at those stuff.

Get my watch fixed .. try to play around wif it after 2 years never touch the poor thing .. and I realise I actually forget what button is for what purpose .. urgh .. but then, when I start playin around wif it .. and I come to this phonebook function .. (Yeah .. it was G-Cool wif 100 storage of numbers) It was pretty cool bout .. 7 or 8 years back, where student dun haf PDA and handphones around . and when the Nokia 3210 is the trend .. I basically kinda store 60 over numbers into my watch, I really thought after so long the memory should be wipe off .. but it stays !! Looking at all those names, is like 90% of them never contact b4 .. and some of them I actually dun remember the name .. *sniff*

U noe . .sometimes when we start moving on from 1 stage to another .. like from Std 6 move on to secondary school .. and from secondary school move to coll or uni ..ppl will go around and start saying ..

"Freeeens forever !! Call me out yum cha u noe .. "
"Eh .. u forget me u die ar. . "

But what is the fact ?? Looking back at the autograph books that I passed around when I was Std 6 and F5 .. flipping thru every single page, from the time we still young .. 12 years old . wat we wrote was ..

"DOB .. The boys I like .. the boys I hate .. what I like to eat .. "

and when F5 we changed to ..

"Know u been a N years .. and the 1st impression u gave me .. .. ... . "

That shows we grown up .. but .. How many person in the book u passed around last time u actually contact them by what details they gave ? Honestly speakin .. a 0% from my primary autogprah book and maybe a 1% or 2% from the secondary autograph book.

Think bout it .. graduated since 2001 from CHS .. and till now I only got not more than 10 frens I still keep contact wif .. and after 10 years .. I finally get gathered wif some of my primary school frens .. Sad isnt it ?
Treasure ur life, treasure what u haf, when u lost it .. then only u will start begin to miss it and regret it.

Peace out ..

Weekend wif PlanetShakers From Sydney

Yeap, PlanetShakers from Sydney was here, in 2 months time we haf Planetshakers from Queensland and Sydney, lead by Ps Paul n Ps Ben. Even tho is only 1 nite, but the team do haf impact in the church, lookin at everyone bouncing up and down infront of the stage, the haze machine working well .. and the lighting effects flashing .. moving heads spins around .. Loud music blasting out from all the JBL speakers .. Rain pouring down heavy outside, but inside the building, ppl worshipping n praising the Lord.

Lookin at every single camera crew doing the shots, lookin down at the congregration .. in my heart .. "Oh maaaan !! I so so so wanna go down there and jump wif them .. "

Anyway .. it was good .. real good .. double shot for Saturday, wif Ps Ben Woods and Ps Dean Sherman speaking for the nite, exhausted .. but .. =) Happy ..

Sunday ..

Raining again, went to 1u lepak around .. fetch Chiang and Meiyean back .. kinda got sesat in Cheras when driving back .. but still reach back home by using Pandan Indah way .. But I guess I really drive on a wrong way .. but the end result is .. I reached home.

Went out for dinner ... not really my taste, so the food is some sort not really nice for me .. but Im just too tired to really taste all those food. all I noe is .. makan and makan .. =P

A not so normal Sat and Sun .. and .. Monday is my day to recharge everything back ..

HKFC

So this is the pic that I took for the HKFC, on the day they song leading in VYS, that day was Karen's last time singing on the VYS b4 she leaving tmr ..

Just nice that I brought my camera (actually for Vision Hour use), then I snap this pic for them ..

From left to right :
Karen, Candy, Hazel, Florence =)

Taken by ET by 1/9/2006 =)

Sob ..

So .. Karen is leaving reaaaaaaaaal soooooon .. and is barely another week that get to see her, and I really haf to admit, I gonna miss someone bugging me for chocs .. "ET !! I want my Timeout !! ", and I so gonna miss someone that actually bully me .. =P and the most, I gonna miss her voice. No more HKFC, and now left HFC on stage, Happy Fried Chicken ? =P.

Satuday, the last time the HKFC together on stage song leading, one of da most energetic praise and worship that I can see, maybe because is the last time 4 of them together ? Took a pic for them, 4 of them on stage together, that is gonna be another memory till she come back next time. Candy is the one I noe suppose song lead during the VisinHour, but Karen joins in as well, lookin at both of them, zoom in my camera on them and project them on the screen, looks very nice, Candy and Karen sitting on the edge of the stage both holding mics and singing .. from the screen I go for close up for both of them, zoom in till more medium shot. Lookin at the scree, wish I could capture the moment down, but sadly I cant. I felt the sadness is there when I look at the screen, I felt the sadness is there, when both of them leading the 2 songs before they start the thing .. This year Karen is leaving .. Last year was Jaslyn and Cherrie .. next year or 2 more years later is Rachy .. one by one is leaving ..

" Freeze the time and capture down every single sweet moment, smiling at the sweet moment when u looking back at it "

Reminds me of the song Photograph by Nickleback ..

" Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh .. "

Hmm .. is also Florence's bday .. never join together wif the small lil celebration to her by her CG, was busy running up and down fixing this and that and doing some run and gun video recording .. I realise when they throwing her a small lil celebration in when I went to DreamCenter and lookin for some ppl .. =) Sweeet bday I guess .. =)

Bday .. by time goes on .. I guess I really can slowly forget when is mine .. Just like this year, I never realise my own bday till got reminded by fren .. and yeah .. they do throw me a lil celebration, not to forget those 12 slices 8 flavours SecretRecipe cakes ..

Sweeeet . ...

Day was kinda neutral, talked to Meiyean on the phone in the evening, noe bout something. Supposely to be sad news, but actually depends on how I take it as .. looking at the bright side, counting my blessings or lookin only at the negative side and start pity myself .. But I choose to take on the bright side and count my blessings .. =)

Blabing ..

Im so sorry to my neighbour .. for my 1st time at nite, blasting my precious speaker to the extreme .. ok, not yet extreme .. but is definitely loud enuff to feel the vibration from my sub woofer and there is vibration for my table, due to the blasting out wave from my downfire speaker.

Some family prob .. which I dun think I will mention it in here, rather blog some crap rather than focusing on the bad things isnt it ? =) Now is 12.43 am, from the time I blog .. and typed till here .. and HAPPY BDAY TO FLORENCE !! haha .. there is alot of ppl's bday nowadays, but so far .. Sept babies .. I guess I only noe is her =P erm . or maybe there is others, hehe cant recall at the moment tho =) So .. sorry if I never mention the others Sept babies .. =P

Came back from CG, and we got new comers again !! When will the CG multiply ?? hehe I waiting to see that =P.When the frequent attendance increase .. and I guess then we will be multiply .. and I believe that is not long from now ? =) talking bout CG .. I really no idea what to get for them for refreshment, any idea anyone ?? so far I've bought cakesssss .. and cakessssss .. and doughnuts .. and last time I used to brought some chips .. but I believe they do deserve some food other than some chips =P. Feeeeed them nicely =D

Aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. chatting in msn till forget what I wanna blog .. nvm la.. next time only blog la =P wait till I remeber back .. and .. that is IF i do remmeber to blog back =P

:: Listening - Youth Alive Queensland - Selfless : Lord of Lords ::

Candy while waiting .. =)
Benjamin_ET

Karen + Alex and .. MONSTAH FLEE !!
Benjamin_ET

A buzy weekend

This week is really really a busy weekend, from Thursday to Friday and Saturday, everyday came back almost midnite, apart from Friday itself .. but I do went out at nite.

Thursday, I went to Sunway Convention Center for the City Harves, Revival Emerge 06, till everything ends, hang out a lil while at Starbucks, drinking . .and makan the left over marble cheesecake from mwah, then drove back home .. is like almost 1am .. and then woke up another day, which is Friday.. then work for the whole day . .and rush back home and rush out again .. =P went to Candy's pick them up and met up wif AndrewCheong for dinner at Uptown .. and THANKS CANDY FOR THE DINNER ! a really not bad western food at that side =).

Fiddling around in their house till almost 11 then only cabut, =P not my 1st time fiddling there till that late tho . .haha few times to be exact .. But anyway, on the way back to my house (only barely less than 2 min drive) down the road along their house, I heard car alarm, then i drove pass .. i saw a Kancil . .door wide open and 1 shadow running away from the car. .. stunend on that, went to the guard post near by and found -- NOBODY THERE ! Where is the guard when they suppose to be there ?

Saturday .. after the VYS, close up everything and went to Jeremy's house for the potbless farewell party for Karen, who is leaving to Shefield on the 16th nite. The whole nite, everyone is larfing around, playing around .. smacking around .. =P Got some funny pics, one of my fav should be .. the monster Florence appears behind when Karen took pic wif .. erm .. erm .. *oops* forget who that was .. but anyway .. haha yeah, Flee apppears to be very very funny monster lookin and nice lookin .. and nature lookin ?? (Flee gonna smack me for saying "monster look and nature for her =P )

The day . .ends wif prayer .. then everybody start going back .. hehe .. yeala . haf too . the next day is Sunday .. and most of us haf to back to church early ..

:: Listening - Hillsong United - United We Stand : None But Jesus ::